Last Post of the Year
Like many people at this time of year, I have been reflecting on 2011 and all the things I've learned and done. Since I mentioned 'My One Word' the other day, I thought I would share with you a little bit of how this process has helped me.
In November of 2010, I knew that my word for this year needed to be 'trust' but I was not willing to commit to it because I wanted something warm and fuzzy like peace or joy. During my run that morning I tried to persuade God to give me a different word. But as I finished my run I heard myself thinking that I could not trust myself to live without my rules.
Then it hit me. DUH!!! My trust is not supposed to be in me, it's supposed to be in God. I laughed out loud (I'm sure God did too) and that's when I decided to make 'trust' my one word for 2011.
See, I finally realized that I kept my whole life very rigid and structured. I had lots of self made rules that governed every aspect of my life. I kept different areas of my life separated and strived to live by my rules because I knew that I could not trust myself to live (and get things done) without them.
Needless to say, my rules kept me captive. They prevented me from completely trusting in God because they kept me focusing on my performance instead of His love, mercy and grace.
I can't say the journey has been easy or that I've completely mastered my trust issues but I can say that God has done and is doing a great work in me.
I have found the joy that is not affected by circumstances or other people's approval in God's love and acceptance of me just as I am... a work in progress. I rely on God's help more and more every day and I listen when He speaks - like last week when He told me I was making things more difficult for myself and I needed to get out of His way.
My rules for life no longer govern the way I live. I live freely and confidently with God who is willing and able to meet me where I am and make up for what I lack.
As we move into another year, I encourage you to put God first everyday. Let me know if you need prayer for anything or have questions.
Happy New Year!
Heidirn
In November of 2010, I knew that my word for this year needed to be 'trust' but I was not willing to commit to it because I wanted something warm and fuzzy like peace or joy. During my run that morning I tried to persuade God to give me a different word. But as I finished my run I heard myself thinking that I could not trust myself to live without my rules.
Then it hit me. DUH!!! My trust is not supposed to be in me, it's supposed to be in God. I laughed out loud (I'm sure God did too) and that's when I decided to make 'trust' my one word for 2011.
See, I finally realized that I kept my whole life very rigid and structured. I had lots of self made rules that governed every aspect of my life. I kept different areas of my life separated and strived to live by my rules because I knew that I could not trust myself to live (and get things done) without them.
Needless to say, my rules kept me captive. They prevented me from completely trusting in God because they kept me focusing on my performance instead of His love, mercy and grace.
I can't say the journey has been easy or that I've completely mastered my trust issues but I can say that God has done and is doing a great work in me.
I have found the joy that is not affected by circumstances or other people's approval in God's love and acceptance of me just as I am... a work in progress. I rely on God's help more and more every day and I listen when He speaks - like last week when He told me I was making things more difficult for myself and I needed to get out of His way.
My rules for life no longer govern the way I live. I live freely and confidently with God who is willing and able to meet me where I am and make up for what I lack.
As we move into another year, I encourage you to put God first everyday. Let me know if you need prayer for anything or have questions.
Happy New Year!
Heidirn
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